Two weeks since we dropped my son off at the recovery program, Uturn for Christ. He is doing wonderful. He was terrified of course. In addition to alcohol he was going to be stopping cigarettes also and of course no cell phone either. Hmm, not sure which one would be the hardest to live without! The pastor/director called 5 days in and said he had a relatively easy withdrawal and was doing great. He wanted me to bring his drivers license as that was a commodity there and he was going to put our boy ( boy- he’s 42! but he’s still my boy) to work as the driver! Of course I was elated as I had been having visions of him so sick and struggling.
They do jobs out in the community and around the ranch there where they live. There are about 10-12 men currently going through the program. They have Bible study daily and chapel three nights a week. We are allowed to visit on a chapel night and stay after for coffee and donuts and a short visit. They also go to a local church on Sunday mornings and we could attend with them. We went out to chapel service a week ago to drop off laundry soap and the drivers license. I was so pleased to see him doing well. He’s very thin and seemed a little weak and tad bit shaky, but overall doing well. It seems like a nice ‘band of brothers’ atmosphere and they all have jobs and pitch in to help each other. One of the gentlemen, who came in shortly before our boy, introduced himself and said our boyo has a good heart and they’ve become fast friend. He is an Irish, Catholic father of 5 from Boston! I feel good about his environment and the people he is with. He has a broken spirit and humility. The pride and anger is gone. He is finally at that point where he is ready to say ‘Okay God, I want what you have for me. It’s all yours, all my failures, all my victories.’ He’s digging into Scripture. We are so excited for him and can’t wait to see what God is going to do with his life! And I’m so pumped that he is going to stay here in Greeneville near us after! We haven’t been going out, staying back. It’s his journey and he doesn’t need his momma butting in. Will probably go out Friday night though. They are going to Knoxville to a worship gathering on April 2nd and we’ve been invited to go with them.
I received a letter from him Yesterday. He said he gets up at 5:30am and goes to bed at 9:30pm after a half hour of solitary time in the Word. He’s feeling much better, some days are aggravating, but each day gets easier. The only thing he doesn’t like is they have to wash their clothes by hand! He’s finding it very interesting being cut off from all things secular and he is learning a lot about the Bible. He said during Bible study and discussion the other night he realized that all those years he was telling God to back off, He stayed by his side waiting!
When you take someone out of their life and they are secluded away to address a life altering issue there are lots of loose ends left dangling. We’ve been dealing with all that background detail for him.
We brought his dog home with us. She is a border collie/husky mix and what an intense dog! Vera Lyn is one year old. I was terrified to bring her home as she has had issues with chewing carpet and pottying in the house. She is an absolute doll baby! One accident in the house and never again. No chewing. She is incredibly smart and you only have to tell her once. My other son and his family wanted to keep her for our boyo so we met them halfway between our house and theirs at a rest area and had a picnic and they took Vera home. They are young and energetic and the grandkids were over the moon to get her. Their dog passed away a couple of years ago. We will go get her when boyo comes home and he can take care of her! I do miss her sleeping with me and following me around, but dogs are a lot of work and to be honest I am exhausted!
She had no problem making herself at home! She helped me cook and do dishes and make beds. Can’t wait until she comes back! But we are going away in April so this works better.
Addiction is a terrible, destructive thing. A prison, a personal Hell that effects everyone around you. Just like the song I shared yesterday says though, it’s okay to not be okay because the One who holds the stars is holding our whole lives. If we didn’t know the pain of being broken we wouldn’t know what it feels like to be whole! If we didn’t know what it looks like to be dirty, we wouldn’t know what it feels like to be clean. And if all of our shame hadn’t driven us to hide in the shadows then we wouldn’t know the beauty of being free! Thank you for your prayers for us!
“If the Son shall set you free, you shall be free indeed!” John 8:36