Porch Talk

Just sitting outside in the backyard on the first evening of fall, listening to a Mockingbird sing up a storm. Someone is mowing their grass off in the distance. The dishes are done and the kitchen is all cleaned up. I love that sense of satisfaction as you hang the dish towel up and everything is in its place.

I told you earlier it’s been a stressful summer. I’ll just get right to it. Bossman was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder with Catatonia this summer. It kind of knocked the stuffing out of me. We’ve dealt with depression for years. On and off medication for it. Once there was even a diagnosis of paranoid personality disorder. I kept asking if they didn’t think he was Bipolar, but they kept saying no. Over the last two years there’s been some different behavior and depression. There seems to be a doctor shortage in this area, but we finally found a good one last spring and she said, “you know he’s Bipolar.” Hallelujah! And then she left the practice. As the summer approached depression set in like never before, this time it was different. He was walking like an old man. He stopped going anywhere. He would sit for hours with his arms crossed and his eyes closed. He would seldom blink. When he made himself go out he was so anxious and fearful. His lip started twitching. The diarrhea was still a problem. He said there’s something wrong with me, I think I’m going crazy.

We stopped fooling around with local doctors and got an appointment with a wonderful doctor 40 minutes away in Johnson City. After talking to us and watching Bossman like a hawk for 30 minutes he said you have Bipolar with Catatonia and it’s a very serious disorder. He spoke of hospitalization and electric shock treatments as possibilities if we couldn’t get it under control with medicine. The jerky walking, the twitching, sitting perfectly still for hours were all from the Catatonia. His movements were all jerky, he felt like he was vibrating when he touched me. He had such foggy thinking that he couldn’t even do small projects or odd jobs around the house. We were terrified and numb.

After frequent visits to the doc and meds added and doses adjusted things seem to be getting back to normal. The diarrhea is completely gone, anxiety levels are manageable, we’re out and doing things again. Sometimes there still some foggy thinking, and stressful situations bring on big-time anxiety and some mental confusion. But the jerkiness is dissipating and I don’t feel the vibration anymore. So we’re hopeful that like the doctor said, with the right medication and learning to manage stress, he should be able to enjoy the rest of his life.

I’ve been reading up and watching videos about bipolar and catatonia and making a list of questions for next visit with the doctor. Not really sure what our expectations should be. Why the sudden change in behavior and the severity of symptoms? Doc said two things probably brought this to a head, major changes in a short period our life, retirement, moving to a new location, family deaths. All these things tend to bring on ‘episodes’ as they call them in Bipolar. And Bossman’s age. As we get older he said it seems to get worse. We have to see a neurologist now as people with Catatonia have a tendency to get Parkinson’s and the doc wants another pair of eyes on Bossman.

Read about Bipolar Disorder.

Catatonia is a psychomotor disorder. It affects a person’s ability to move in a normal way.   It can become so severe that a person can’t move at all or even swallow. Right now it seems that Bossman’s is mild, but it is enough that it disrupts his our life enormously. Reading up on Parkinson’s, Catatonia is a big symptom of it too. It’s scary stuff! And Bossman retired early to enjoy life 😦  We’re hopeful the doctor is right and we can get this under control with treatment. It just really makes me angry that all the years of doctoring with ‘specialists’ and no one diagnosed him correctly. All these years of difficulty could have been avoided to some extent.


Monday: I started writing this Saturday night. Wasn’t sure if I wanted to post it. Couldn’t make up my mind how much I wanted to share. Bipolar is so common and I’m sure lots of people struggle with it in silence as they don’t want anyone to know they have ‘mental illness’. It is isolating, I can definitely attest to that!  We need to talk about it, there should be no shame involved. It doesn’t affect just the person who has it, but the whole family. Everyone’s life is changed because of it. Do you know someone who suffers from this? I’m here to talk anytime!

Maybe now that I’ve got this off my chest I can start posting regular again. The Grandkids were here this summer and we did take a trip to Maine late August so I have things to talk about. I haven’t been reading as much and just don’t seem to care to review what I have read. Everything seems kind of flat. But it will pass, I’m sure.

If any of you live in North or South Carolina I hope you weren’t affected by that horrific flooding! I just can’t imagine what living through that would be like!  My brother-in-law lives in Raleigh, they were spared by the storm moving a little bit more south. We got about 1-2 inches of rain in a day from it, but no winds. The grass was getting pretty brown so it was a good thing really. It was a nice steady rain that soaked in.

I just finished reading Living Life Backwards: How Ecclesiastes Teaches Us to Live in Light of the End. It is by Dr. David Gibson a Scottish pastor of a church in Aberdeen. It was very good. Ecclesiastes is a difficult book to make heads or tails of and one not often preached from in church! Good advice and can revolutionize how you live life! Reading The Camomile Lawn now and really enjoying it.

I was awake at 4AM this morning and couldn’t go back to sleep! We had a lovely sunrise though and I was glad to have gotten the chance to see it! I better go get some coffee in me though I feel the tired coming on now!

Thanks for stopping over! See you later.

Death in the Air

by Agatha Christie (original title: Death in the Clouds)

3419858A woman is killed by a poisoned dart in the enclosed confines of a commercial passenger plane…

It was a most extraordinary case. A woman murdered with the venom-dipped dart of a South African blow-gun on a routine flight over the English channel. More Bizarre still: that the killing could go completely unnoticed by the planes’s other passengers. And most ironic of all: that Hercule Poirot, the brilliant detective, should be sitting not fifteen feet from the victim!


Another good mystery. I certainly didn’t figure this one out! So many of you have read and reviewed Agatha Christie it seems redundant for me to go on about it! An excellent read, interesting characters, superb plotting as always. I especially liked the ‘locked room’ aspect of this one. You’ll enjoy it!

I finished this one the last week of August but just now getting around to posting it!


This book fulfills the Where category (on a mode of transportation) in the Gold Era for Just the Facts M’am over @ My Reader’s Block.